Dear Patience
Seriously, folks, I don’t understand where my wife gets her energy and patience. The girls were being rowdy and not at all settling down for bed, so she pops them in the car and goes for a ride. Then she calls me and says, “We’re stopping at Rita’s. You want anything?” Personally, I’m exhausted and just want to read comic books and sleep all the time.
Maybe it’s because I was awake from 6am onwards this morning after a weekend of sleeping in.
Maybe it’s because I spent 2.5 hours listening to three sycophants enjoying hearing themselves describe their bass ackwards product that needs to be designed and figured out by September.
Maybe it’s because an irritating blob of a useless being has befriended me at work and I just feel like locking myself in the bathroom when she drops by to talk about just about anything.
Maybe it’s because I am burned out beyond all hope, deal with depression on an on-going basis, think that the world is on the brink of disaster due to 1. war and the u.s. conquest of all countries that are not “democratic” 2. global warming 3. pollution 4. too many people fucking and making more people 5. idiots who stand in the middle of the bike lane catching their breath because they are too old and frail to be out jogging in the first place and shouldn’t be in the fucking bike lane to begin with…
If I reinvent myself, will I wake up in 6 months and feel static again, stale?
If I perceive a situation as potentially fraught with peril, will I always be labeled a Cassandra or will people eventually give me credit for being a good judge of character, integrity?
Does history really repeat itself? Am I Bill Murray, only stuck in Baltimore in an infinite loop?
When will I get over my fear of failure and look for a new life, a new career?
Capitalism has no concern for ethics or human spirit. It is a big angry monster pissing on everyone.
May 15th, 2008 at 11:47 am
If you find some patience - can you throw some this way??
And I am HIGHLY afraid of #4 on your list - I’ve been a teacher for 10 years and there are some REALLY stupid people breeding out there! And I also get really annoyed at those frustrating people at work you don’t really like, but can’t be totally rude to - who just talk or annoy you. I’ve started walking away while they’re talking. It works. Fast.
May 15th, 2008 at 1:00 pm
Most of society should be sterilized prior to the 16th year of their life.
May 15th, 2008 at 7:12 pm
Lydia: If I find any patience, I’m gonna hold onto it! I tried walking away yesterday… this person doesn’t take any hints!
Damien: thanks for your balanced and measured insight…
I’m happy to report that today was better. I got out for lunch, tried to laugh quite a bit. Sang silly songs to myself on the bike ride home from work…
May 15th, 2008 at 9:20 pm
My insights are nothing if not balanced and measured…